CHEST Guidelines-Yesterday

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Dr. Rachel Fleishman shares a poignant personal narrative, reflecting on her experiences as a neonatology physician during the COVID-19 pandemic. Faced with the continuous strain of parental grief and infant suffering in a Philadelphia safety net hospital, she sought solace in family and nostalgia, illustrated through watching the movie "Yesterday" with her children. The film's escape into a world without The Beatles provided a momentary distraction amid the chaos.<br /><br />She recounts the emotionally intense experience of caring for a premature infant who was too immature to survive, highlighting the agony of watching his life slip away. The usual comfort found in the communal mourning of times past was replaced by the isolating reality of pandemic restrictions, leaving her to shoulder the burden of grief alone.<br /><br />Her personal grief was mirrored in her son's repeated singing of "Yesterday," which, while comfortingly nostalgic, also served as a reminder of the pervasive and inescapable sorrow of the moment. Dr. Fleishman describes the haunting drive to and from work, through a city marked by closed schools, empty streets, protest signs, and palpable tension, reflecting broader societal grief and loss.<br /><br />She shares a moving moment of mistaken identity where she believes she sees the mother of the deceased infant, illustrating the deep-seated impact of her experiences. This encounter, combined with her son's innocent longing for a simpler time, leads to an emotional release as she accepts that more challenges and loss lie ahead. Through her narrative, Dr. Fleishman processes her grief and the ongoing reckoning with a transformed world, finding strength in the capacity for resilience and mourning in the "twilight of tomorrow."

Keywords

neonatology

COVID-19 pandemic

parental grief

Philadelphia hospital

nostalgia

premature infant

pandemic restrictions

societal grief

resilience

transformed world